Sunday morning was quite a struggle for me. It was my first time going back to church in Zaachila for over a month (due to mission groups and traveling), and to be honest, I didn't really want to go. As my departure time grew nearer, my mind raced to find reasons to stay home.
My thought process was along these lines: "I'm running late because I slept in. I haven’t made time for my morning devotions - I really should make sure I do that. Shouldn’t you go to church not out of obligation, but out of desire to worship? No one knows I'm going to church, no one's expecting me to be there. I heard a strange animal noise out the window. The circus is really close to here. What if a lion got loose? How would I find out? That could be dangerous."
I knew I needed some encouragement, so I went to make a phone call to a friend - all the while guessing the person probably wouldn’t be there anyhow. As I picked up a phone, a Bible verse jumped to my mind. I remember this verse especially because, for some reason, I got a huge kick out of it in high school.
The verse was Proverbs 22:13, “The sluggard says, ‘There is a lion outside!... I will be murdered in the streets!’”
I could hardly believe it. This verse that was so funny to me in high school was applying to my life, and quite literally at that. Was I actually the sluggard who invented a fear of a lion roaming the streets to stop myself from leaving the comfort of my apartment? After such a timely revelation, I of course had to get myself to church. It still wasn't easy though. Each step of the way, my mind kept returning to how I could not go.
Despite my delays, I arrived at the church exactly on time and ended up enjoying the service quite a bit. The kids were happy to see me - even the one-year-old :). I felt confident to share my praises along with others during the time of sharing and the pastor's message fit right into what I’ve felt challenged in this year. So, turns out God was able to teach me even with me getting in the way - how amazingly patient He is.
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"Pay attention and listen to the sayings of the wise;
apply your heart to what I teach,
for it is pleasing when you keep them in your heart
and have all of them ready on your lips.
So that your trust may be in the LORD, I teach you today,
even you. "
Proverbs 22:17-19